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first day of summer

well…. i just checked last years calendar, at this time last year i weighed 153…., right now im 140…., but i can’t get the fact that i was 128 in january out of my head …, my goal for the first day of summer was…115…. and im 140…, well ….


HELP

i REALLY need to delete this blog, but my email has changed and i cant remember my old password…., but i need to get rid of this shit ASAP. and its not letting me delete it!


Q
You got fired from the salvo LOL
Anonymous
A

…….who is this?!


eating ranch dressing with your hands and the fears of shitting yourself in public…, day in the life… -__-

Ugh, im doing bad. So last night I binged and purged (what else is new) but then I got drunk and ate pretty much a whole thing of ranch dressing with my hands… (WHY!?) ..probably like 800 calories I didn’t need , enjoy or even remember…anyways I got up today (well yesterday now) at like 5pm hungover, and about 5 minutes after waking up I binged and purged again. Then I fell asleep until like 9pm, when I ate an Italian ‘monster sub’ with a ton of mayo, and a full huge bag of chips and dip. …which took me forever to purge, and I don’t even think I got it all up. I spent like an hour over the toilet, drinking pop, and sifting through the bucket of vomit trying to make sure it was ‘all there’ ..ugh..then I drank some vodka. I woke up again at 4am with all kinds of …stomach issues…if you know what I mean, and had to keep running to the bathroom. I worked out for about an hour.., and now my stomach is REALLY weird. I have to go to see my boyfriends friends band in a couple hours, and im afraid im going to like shit myself at the concert or something. God dammit. Isn’t bulimia fun? UGHHHH.


Q
I'm really proud of you for eating something and trying to keep it down, for what it's worth.
Anonymous
A

yeah i try when i can, im just hoping someday i can be normal..,

thanks tho <3



drinking beer…, just ate a small salad with some bread, and some ‘light’ soup, not even that mad. whatever. no use purging this shit right now. my throat is raw and my face is bloated. just keepin it down…


sallydead:

Awesome!!! :O

sallydead:

Awesome!!! :O