Ugh, im doing bad. So last night I binged and purged (what else is new) but then I got drunk and ate pretty much a whole thing of ranch dressing with my hands… (WHY!?) ..probably like 800 calories I didn’t need , enjoy or even remember…anyways I got up today (well yesterday now) at like 5pm hungover, and about 5 minutes after waking up I binged and purged again. Then I fell asleep until like 9pm, when I ate an Italian ‘monster sub’ with a ton of mayo, and a full huge bag of chips and dip. …which took me forever to purge, and I don’t even think I got it all up. I spent like an hour over the toilet, drinking pop, and sifting through the bucket of vomit trying to make sure it was ‘all there’ ..ugh..then I drank some vodka. I woke up again at 4am with all kinds of …stomach issues…if you know what I mean, and had to keep running to the bathroom. I worked out for about an hour.., and now my stomach is REALLY weird. I have to go to see my boyfriends friends band in a couple hours, and im afraid im going to like shit myself at the concert or something. God dammit. Isn’t bulimia fun? UGHHHH.